Today was my last day as an administrative assistant, and August 20th will be my first day as a full-time student.
Today represents an end to the financial security I've been so lucky to have. It represents the end of bi-monthly paychecks that actually covered the bills, "free" health insurance, and annual bonuses. It represents the end of a familiar routine and the security that comes with a position one is adept at. It represents the beginning of a new form of social insecurity as a "non-traditional student" on campus. It represents fear and doubt and hope and anticipation. It represents the possibility of a future in which I can spend my days immersed in a field that lights my shit right right up. It represents the possibility of failure and its consequences. It represents an adventure of exploration and discovery and stress and worry. It represents change and growth. It represents the person I've become and the person I want to be.
I think I may be in shock.